i had everything i wanted!
sometimes you wish you had the best car in your village
or the best fon in ur class
or the most expensive dress on prom night
but then suddenly wen u get it......
how does it feel?
First time in my entire life i was bumpd up to first class....business class was full..syempre connections brought us dyr...anyway the point...so i got to sat on the nice chair everyones talkin about...and the good food...hot plate and shit...lie down like ur in a real bed...watch tv...with no one watchin over ur shoulder...but how did it feel? it came a time that i was tired of watchin n sleepin n orderin some more food that i jsut looked out the window... and i realized...was this what i wanted?
when i lost this guy...i thought i wanted him back...i thought...having him in my arms that day was the best way to leave the philippines...but it wasn't is was the worst way to leave the memories behind...that room was just left with hate...and tears...
then i thought to myself...was he the guy for me..thanks man..u brought sense into me!! haaay..and cuz...ur ryt...i was just used to him being dyr for me! i gess love never struck me talga....but thats sad if u think about it...every word u guys exchanged were lies...and yet we both can still stand tall...haaay....
Now i know wat i really want....I want YOU! i always had you...and yet i just ignored you...
MY LAST NIGHT in the phil was with the YFC people....we had a meeting...and then worship....and suddenly dyr...i started cryin...ever since i was with him all i did ws for that boy...i gave my time and effort...and yet all i had left was nothin...now...i realized God was all i needed now...How can i accept someone else in my life if i haven't trully accepted God...
I dont need the best things in the world....cause i already have the best things in the world... I have my family...dad....mom...steff..relatives..maceda and fernando....reyes...and ramos...friends..PB PB PB PB PB PB(DYR PWITI A LOT!)special mention millie...den den...desto...miki...kayemat...margz...coco...andi...acro peeps...special mention reuel...bea...miguel.......and the guy hu stuck through with me for the longest times....and still upto now...ur dyr....ryan.....
THESE ARE GODS BEST! | 
